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Created on 2006-05-28 05:51:05 (#10329267), last updated 2006-06-08

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Basic Info

Name:	Kandi
Birthdate:	09-11
Location:	Anchorage, Alaska, United States
Website:	MySpace

Bio

Loves

Sex. Smoking. Sleep. My Fiancé. Vodka. Angelina Jolie. Prada Anything.
Reading. Philosophy. Criminal Justice. Pilates. Baseball. Mila Jovovich.
Anything Vintage. Aqua Eyeshadow. Cats. Sunglasses. Alaska. Thunderstorms.

Hates

Slobs. Bitches. Judgmental Asses. Sunlight. Housework. Balloons.
Phonies. Basketball. Whiskey. Fish.

Diagnonsense

ED-NOS, Bipolar with Manic tendencies, Ex-SIer, Anemia, PCOS, Endometriosis,
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Pica, Photodermatosis (Allergic to sun), Asthmatic, &tc

This is my support journal. Don't bother telling me you know ANYTHING about me. This is a side of me the people I love never see. I use this journal for my dieting and straightening out my head. I'm merely looking for support from people whom share/d a common bond, be it my past eating disorder, depression, PCOS, whatever. I joined many communities and found a lot of little girls who just wrack my head at some things they do.

1. Anorexia is not a diet, it is a disease. Don't ask me how I did it as a kid. I don't do it now.
2. It's not "cool" to cut yourself. Do you really want little kids constantly asking you what those scars are from? Do you want your bosses wondering why you tried to kill yourself?
3. Depression is not a fad. Also, don't give me that shit "Depression hurts." You more than likely don't know how deep it does hurt.
4. Photodermatosis is not a "cool" vampire disease. How would you like to have to coat yourself in SPF 50 and still get a rash from just walking to work?
5. Having an OCD is nothing something edgy. It's serious.

I am a college student. I'm a hard worker and a smart person. I don't have time to deal with crap from little girls who don't know what is going on or who I am.

I was Anorexic all through high school at 80 pounds and, until I went through a massive life change, partly in college. I started gaining back weight and made it to 120 then got pregnant and gained more, then lost the baby. The doctors told me it was from being anorexic for so long so I ate more food than I have ever seen being sure to never get that way. As the story goes, I got pregnant again, lost the baby.

My guess is none of the girls who are trolling in my journal have any clue what that is like. I doubt they can even imagine what it is like to carry life inside of you, grow so close to someone you cannot imagine and then have it ripped away and now be stuck bleeding out the excess for upwards of a month and no one can do anything about it.

I've had some trolls in my journal saying "omg ur not anorexic" well no shit! I'm fat. No I am not anorexic. Never have I claimed to be anything other than ED-NOS. SO, until you know my full story and background... DON'T judge me. I put myself out there for support. I've completely put myself out there to people I thought I could find comfort in and maybe even help a bit. I've only had this journal about a week and already it's going to shit.

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